✁ running on an unspecified number of hours of sleep

trying to get over someone is easier said than done.  you simply cannot let go of the memories you had together, especially if they were with you for a greater part of your life. but you also don't want to ruminate in said memories because it'll make you more miserable.  the relationship is near dissolved, it's no longer what it used to be, but one side has trouble accepting reality and will cling to what it was. 

. . . 

in these cases, some cannot help but watch the other from afar.  direct interaction is more painful due to complete changes in the other's personality, attitudes, etc.  it's jarring to see someone whose perception of you've built in your head on years of interactions suddenly become an entirely different character.

. . . 

the relationship isn't over, but it's not active either. interaction is minimal.  there is no more hope in initiating a conversation in the hopes that their behavior from the past months was merely temporary, that their old self would come back.  but you still can't let go, so you simply observe them.  observe their limited online presence and just maybe, you'll get a peek at what the dry attitude and lack of contact are hiding.  but there will be an inevitable one-sided bond, a bond nonetheless, forming between the observer and subject.